STOP HIDING AND SHOW UP FOR YOUR LIFE/ A JOURNEY INTO WHOLEHEARTED LIVING
For a good portion of my life, I’ve been hiding! I didn’t realize it until my confidence began to unravel and I became riddled with shame and self-doubt. Maybe I was going through a midlife crisis or something else. Whatever was happening, it was terrifying and no matter what I tried, I couldn’t shake the feelings of uncertainty and feeling lost. It was then, the journey of showing up for my life began.
I’m a follower of Jesus and, of course, I’m supposed to be filled with faith and anointing, right!? Well, when things began to breakdown in my soul, I entered a crisis of faith that has changed my life and my faith forever! When you’re faith is tested beyond what you have the power to endure, that’s when you lean on God even more. You can’t know what you truly believe and are convinced of unless what you believe is put in the fire and proved. And that’s what this season of my life has been all about!
I was confronted with the question “where are you?” from God! Putting on my mask in church and serving in ministry while struggling and hurting inside. I had maybe two close friends that I confided in at the time but no one else knew what I was going through. However, I found out later, that people could see it on my face and in my body. I was in trouble and thought I was hiding it well, but it began to brim over into every area of life.
In a state of utter defeat, I resigned from the only ministry I had ever felt called to, worship, to take some time of rest and repose in my life and it was during that four years that God began to transform my faith and my life.
This blog is about waking up! It’s about showing up! It’s about healing from self-hatred and self-doubt to step into the fullness of the life that I’d been given. It’s about living a grateful, wholehearted life. A life that lives in the truth, confronts the lie and fights in rest and trust!
The core message is that we are deeply and completely loved and accepted by God and out of that love we are to show up for our lives. The enemy of our souls is a liar and the father of lies and we’ve bought into the lies that we are without value, not enough, and worthless and it’s in buying into those lies that we live lives of hiding, pretense, and shame. As a consequence, we never show up to be, fully, who God created us to be and to make the contribution that is the US to the world.
If you’re ready to stop hiding and show up for your life, this blog is for you. It’s a chronicle of my journey and process to healing that I’m still walking out. I invite you into the healing with me! You can read more of the story here!
In addition to my blog and music, I also oversee the Worship Ministry in one of the greatest churches on planet earth, Covenant Love Church, where I’ve served in full-time ministry for over 20 years. There, I have the privilege to mentor and support the next generation of leaders God is raising up in the earth.
My prayer is that you’ll be met here with the Spirit of God and Grace for transformation and healing.
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