Disclaimer: This devotional is not a substitute or replacement for your regular therapy or mental health. If it causes flashbacks or distress, see a mental health professional right away. I am not licensed to counsel or give therapy of any kind nor is this devotional an attempt to do so. The contents and suggestions in this devotional are ones of personal experience of my own and are not meant to be professional advice or therapy.
32 And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.”
Between the breaking and the coming true is a place where everything shakes my absolutes.
Between the promise and the destitute is my faith forged in the wake of all I believe about you.
And my reason is consumed.
You are the beginning and the end and all that happens in between is just the chasing of the wind.
You are forever and you take my hand, set my mind on Heavenly things till all I see is you.
Between the sorrow and the joy that comes in the morning, without warning my questions are undone.
And in the trial, there’s glory there. In the place of control, I learn to let go!
I surrender every care and all I see is You!
Healing hurts! And some days it’s going to stink! Maybe you’re having one of those days today. If not, stick with it, it won’t be far off.
Healing means getting honest with our own heart and facing the truth about your life. It means change and change is hard and requires commitment. It requires paying a price. The price of walking in the unfamiliar, losing control and leaving toxic relationships behind. It requires admitting you’re at fault and have contributed to the pain by allowing people to treat you a certain way or playing the “victim” in situations.
It means taking responsibility for your own life and stopping the people-pleasing behavior (that’s a whole other subject). It also means facing the sting of admitting that your pain and staying in it brings a payoff for you (pity, sympathy from others), etc. that you don’t want to lose.
Well, let me just say, that if you’re miserable enough to have acquired this book, then that means you want to heal no matter what the cost and if so, you are ready for “the breaking”.
If you’ve never tasted freedom, you really don’t have a reference for it. If you’ve been steeped in shame and recovery from abuse for a lifetime, the taste of freedom is not something your palette has experienced. But, oh, when it comes, you will never hunger for anything less!
That’s why this week’s step is going to be difficult but it will yield the best results! When I began to get honest with myself…..life began to turn around. This is not the kind of truth that you mentally assent to but you will have to seek God and pray to have your eyes opened to the truth. Truth is a funny thing. When you hide it, the lie becomes stronger until you may actually be believing a lie but you’ve accepted it as the truth. Jesus said in John 3:
19 And this is the condemnation, that the light has come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil. 20 For everyone practicing evil hates the light and does not come to the light, lest his deeds should be exposed.
When we really want to live in the truth, we step out of the dark into the light where the truth is exposed. At times it can expose us and depending on the situation, sometimes we’d rather die than be exposed. That’s because the devil will convince us that if we are exposed, we will lose everything. And there is a chance we will lose. Relationships, ways of living, our reputations. That is why we hide the truth because it comes at a great price. But, Jesus said the truth will make you free! And freedom is what you want.
This week, I want you to seek the Lord in prayer and just listening, asking Him to reveal to you any truths about your life or your heart that are hidden in the dark. Any truths that you don’t want to face. In that prayer, you need to also address the enemy and command he loose any truths in your life and bind up every lie. You will need to give yourself plenty of time and space to do this. And privacy. Make sure you are in a place where you won’t be disturbed if at all possible.
Write anything the Lord reveals in your journal. This may be difficult and challenging as you may discover you have been using shame or abuse to leverage a relationship, keep a relationship that is damaging or maybe you are sabotaging the relationship or situation. Whatever it is, open your eyes to it, confess it as sin and forsake it. If you are in counseling, you may want to do this exercise with your counselor. Or visit your counselor after the exercise.
Truth is a very deep and treacherous well, and having a trusted friend that can help you as you dig it out, it very good wisdom!
Hebrews 4: 12 – 14
For the word of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart. 13 And there is no creature hidden from His sight, but all things are naked and open to the eyes of Him to whom we must give account.