There’s an ache that keeps me up at night

That wakes me

In the deep of the fourth watch

The silence is deafening

Empty

Quiet

But I’m not alone

I can feel Him

Present

Very near

He’s there

Keeping watch over my heart

Keeping watch over the ache in my soul

The loneliness that owns so much of me

The unknown in my life

Detached from a place of belonging

Disconnected

Unknown

So deeply unknown

Life goes on around me

But eludes this space within me

Yet, His eyes

I can feel them toward me

On me

Cocooned in His patience and mercy

I am

So much mercy

Preserved in His plan for me

Upheld in His promise

And here I rest

Here I cease my struggling

The kicking and screaming

Calmed by His soothing lullaby

His love singing over me

His pity, remembering I am dust

He loves me

He owns me

Purchased with blood

Tears and the agony of His soul

The cost of my redemption

Redemption of the past that haunts my life

Redemption of all the broken parts

And so I wait

I trust

He holds it all

He holds me

Bringing sense out of confusion

Redeeming my shattered trust

Making something of me